Its Madi…..My Chosen Detour
My Chosen Detour
I heard a painful and resounding NO this week.
I had been praying for something since March, something I desperately wanted more than anything I’ve ever wanted in my life.
And I was told NO.
That doesn’t set well with me.
I was infuriated.
I cried.
I talked to a few friends on the phone about my frustration and feeling like God let me down.
I asked God “Why?!!!
Of all the things I’ve been told NO to, why must it be this one?”
Why do the hardest hits always have to land in the areas of my life I treasure most?
I just don’t understand sometimes.
I felt so defeated, like all the effort I had put into this dream of mine was all for nothing.
I agonized about what I was doing wrong.
Decided to allow myself a night to “emote” and then wake up and try again tomorrow.
I went to bed but didn’t sleep.
I kept tossing and turning all night.
I had nightmares of this dream of mine never happening for me.
I woke up the next morning expecting to brace myself for the downcast emotions which I would
be faced with given the reality check from the night before.
However…. that’s NOT how I woke up feeling.
When my feet hit the floor the morning after hearing the answer I never wanted to hear, I felt this surge of overwhelming determination.
I choose to reject the NO.
Because accepting the NO was giving up.
And that’s something I don’t do.
Especially not in this area of my life.
They always say, “You find out how bad you really want something by the mountains you’re willing to climb in order to get it.”
And I’ve already been climbing and I’m not about to turn back now.
God spoke into my spirit…. “Use this as a way to prove how bad you want it. Have faith, keep acting like you already have it, and watch me work. It’s just a detour.”
I’ve become quite fond of detours in my life. I’ve learned that sometimes the detour is better than the original path I had planned to venture out on. Quite literally during my 2021 travels taking a detour has lead me to see stunning waterfalls, amazing Mountain views, through dark and deep tunnels, and introduced me to meet many people I would’ve never met otherwise.
But with this event in my life, I was not prepared for a detour. I don’t WANT a detour…. not this time.
Then I hear that voice again…
“Nothing worth having comes easy
You know this. I’ve already proven this to you in other areas of your life.
Now get up, get to work, you know what to do.”
So, I guess I have no choice.
I’ve got some work to do, and some serious choices to make.
I’ve just got to keep reminding myself that even when taking a detour, the destination remains in the same place.
My dream isn’t changing.
The destination remains the same.
That specific NO is not going to magically turn into a YES.
So, it’s ME that is going to have to make it happen.
This is the first time I’m actually going to be CHOOSING the specific detour I’m taking…. and I have a feeling it’s going to make 2021/2022 a lot more interesting. ♥️
Madi….
